the allure of the button called snooze

Happy Halloween! Nothing says health care professional like a dementor/grim reaper costume :)

Making a new habit of eating breakfast in beautiful places on my way to work. Nothing like a hot cup of coffee on a cool fall morning with sun rising at the fort. I truly live in a beautiful place. Love having these moments to myself!

Well "offseaon" has been rolling along but I feel a little forlorn even using that word wondering if there is an "onseason" again for me ever. Yup, that little tinge of feeling lost won't quite escape me. So in my mind, I keep trying to plan the next big thing. Some spring running races, maybe a 13.1 or 26.2 if training is going well. But then I run and I'm kinda not that into it. I will go on a run and just think to myself, nah.... I'm not in the mood to be running a ton.

So I set my alarm every morning to get up and just get in a nice refreshing workout before work- I do really feel like working out, its by no means drudgery- and every morning I go through about 90 minutes of snooze button. I just can't get out of bed. I'm not sure if its because I just really am tired, or if its the luxury of I don't HAVE to get up so I'm not going to, but in any case I just sleep in alot. The only exception is leaving just enough time to go to the beach in the morning with Brisbane. I love love love fall in Florida as the beach is empty, windy and dark. The ocean is roaring and the stars are out in force and lucky me, I get this show all to myself. Now THAT has been getting me out of bed in the morning.

Every evening starts with a good workout plan but usually ends up in another dinner/drink affair with friends and it has been so much fun to have the time to catch up with all the awesome people in my life. It's been an awesomely relaxing time for me to enjoy these simple pleasures of spending time with friends and being more of a relaxed human being but the athletic side of me is just chafing with my own laziness. I am a true gemini with completely opposed mulitple personalities.

See the thing is, I'm kind of a lazy person. All or nothing as I've said before. I'm either training or I'm not. And with no goal on the horizon that would even come near the personal importance to me that Kona did, well, I kinda can't find a groove. I'm definitely falling pretty far on the side of NOT training. But all that changed last night with my first experience at crossfit. Yes, that cultish fad that I've purposely avoided due to my perception of horrible mechanics and unnecessary testosterone charged musculoskeletal overload. BUT I went in with an open mind and I was super suprised to find that I love it! Its exactly the type of challenge I've been seeking and I'm sure I couldn't have found any athletic activity more diametrically opposed to what my body is used to doing. Score. I want to suck and start from the bottom and teach my body something new. Mission accomplished :)

I was so excited about it in fact, I actually got out of bed this morning to run before work for the first time since Kona. I was suprised to find that despite last nights crossfit ass kicking, I could still run this morning! I was sore, but not the kind of stiff sore that inhibits you from running.

Just finding this one new little group of cool people with a culture and physical challenge so different than what I'm used to has been enough to get me super stoked on all things training again. I think crossfit is just the foothold I need to get started doing SOMETHING again and I can't wait until I can really get stronger and tear up some of these workouts. I don't have to know what the next race is or when/if triathlon will be involved in the next few years but just having this new challenge right here in front of me now has helped me to transition to the reality of a blank race schedule for 2012.

Next week is a big one. I have an interview that will very much change my life if it goes well and I suppose its that unknown that has really kept me from making any sort of athletic related plans for the forseeable future. On top of that my Dad is ending up having to get a pacemaker afterall so he's back in the hospital next Thursday.

By the end of the year, I will have a pretty good idea of what the future looks like and I'm pretty stoked about some opportunities coming my way. Stay tuned and I hope to have some good news sooner or later!